A picture worth- My grandpa

My grandpa's grinning smile.

When I was a little girl, my mom didn't allow me to buy candies, so whenever I went back to my grandparents' home,I always tricked my grandpa to take me a walk then brought him to the convenient store to buy the snacks secretly without telling my mom. After my little trick succeeded, I always giggled with mischievous eyes. Though my grandpa already knew my little tricks, he would pretended to be tricked by me to fulfill my feeling of accomplishment. I think this is the way how he spoiled me.

Afterwards, I grew up, everytime when I go back the conversation between me and my grandpa is like:

"Have you eaten yet?" Grandpa asked in Taiwanese.

" Oh, I had already eaten it." replied by me in Taiwanese with weird Chinese accent.

"Someone gave it to me, it's delicious, try it." Grandpa said.

"Ok, What's this?" I tried hard to find the topic to talk with grandpa.

The relationship between us is not as close as when I was young, but I still can feel the care from him. However, recently, my grandpa's health condition gets worse and worse. Util a few weeks ago, I went back to visit him, he can't walk by himself and eats less and less. His talking became a kind of murmuring which is difficult for us to understand. What's more, I couldn't feel the energy and the soul from his eyes, only left hollow eye contact...... And he even can't call my name, he mistook me as my cousin.

I know this day will come, but I don't know it comes so fast. I can feel clearly that his life energy is fading away with the times. I feel sorry that I can't do something to help with this condition. I Know the old days won't come back, what I can do is to accept the fact that he is leaving away from us little by little. I only can make a wish to the God to let my grandpa have more time to stay with us and when the time comes for him to go, I wish he could go to a beautiful place with a lot of joy and happiness without any pain.